First happy Nico Monday!
For those of you that said euthanizing Nico was painful--think again. In fact, it was the easiest decision I've ever made. Yes, I know that may sound wrong, but to me its not. Think about it, the pros of euthanizing outweigh the pros of having a few selfish hours with him alive until he dies. Nico had HCM which thickens the walls of his heart until they're damaged then it leads to heart failure. He also had liver failure. I admire his bravery more than mine. I repaid those few selfish hours I never spent with him for staying by his side as he was dying. I wouldn't have traded it for the world, and I wouldn't let anything stand in my way of being beside my dying baby. Plus who the fuck wants to die alone? Yes, we all die in the end, but Nico deserved freedom from pain and suffering, and if I was to die, I'd want him by my side too, but I'd die alone if he wanted me too too. He gave me more than what I gave him, but at least I gave him what he really wanted--freedom.
And I gave him his freedom 2 weeks ago. Yeah, he's been dead 2 weeks.